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Over the past few years, my voice has been heard and my words have been read by powerful people from time to time. My highest viewed video on YouTube reached over 750. I drew Twitch staff's attention to a chat history functionality that a third party website was offering to select paying customers for added security for TV channels on that website and they decided to add this feature to the clients automatically and for free, but it is only visible by authorized individuals instead of everyone(for moderation purposes). I made some poor audio quality Saga Frontier playthrough videos and I successfully predicted Saga Frontier Remaster coming to Switch and it will be ready to play in April.
Am I worthy of the title influencer? Most certainly not! Would I ever be? I do not know. But it is clear that I am a noteworthy individual. Am I exceptional? It would appear most people on the internet do not think so. But that doesn't stop me from being what I am and being true to myself and those who believe in me. And I can assure you, that I will never have an interest in dishonestly manipulating other people, unlike many of the influencers I've seen online.
Sometimes disgusting things happen, and whether they are important or not changes from person to person, and from disgusting thing to disgusting thing. I debated with myself often whether I should post some sort of shame video on YouTube since it's not something that's forbidden and this year I finally did just that. I am proud of myself for doing it. I'm not sure when I'll make another video like that or what it would be about, but it's somewhat likely that I'll continue to make such videos.
Sometimes exciting things happen. Starcraft 2's story coming to fans was one such exciting thing. The multiplayer design was a disaster IMB(in my book), but that didn't stop me from appreciating what we got that was good. This year I think I will purchase the remastered version of Starcraft: Broodwar so that I can gain access to ranked play. If any of you are on the fence about that, we could play private matches on the new ranked maps to help you decide.
Other exciting things are the plethora of games coming out that look quite interesting. Project Triangle Strategy released a Demo(which I've already played, it has replayability but I declined to replay it so as to save storage space) and it looks a lot like Pokemon Conquest and Final Fantasy Tactics and Saga Frontier 2 and Octopath Traveller. Presumed to be made by the same development team that worked on Octopath Traveller.
The next numbered platforming adventure in the Crash Bandicoot series is finally coming to Nintendo Switch, which has been my most used gaming platform since I started playing Super Mario Maker 2. Playstation 2 and 3 game development actually skipped such an adventure, choosing instead to try out a bunch of experimental game designs that were hit or miss. I've briefly previewed someone playing this game on Playstation 4 and I'm pleased to report that it looks just as intriguing as the good old games.
And of course, this month, the Green Star grabbing game, Super Mario 3D World game came out on the Switch and I've been playing it. And it's so much fun. I decided to do a sort of celebration for it. I figured it would be fun with lots of cool ideas and so far it has not disappointed. I'm not done playing the game yet, but it's been an interesting ride, and apparently full of optional challenges and comes with optional cheats as well, so as to be interesting to all skill levels of players. I don't regret deciding to unlock all the rest of the emotes, and it was also a way for me to reinvest in the stream because I had not ever gifted a single subscription before I got my first payout. Of course I proposed that viewers help with the cost of the emotes, but ultimately it was up to me to make sure the goal that I set was met and I fulfilled the majority of the obligation myself. And since the government has been giving just about everyone some money to help build the economy, who am I to tell them that I should not invest the money they've been sending me?
It's worth noting that I predicted SM3DW game was coming to Switch, also. But I did not anticipate the announcement of Bowser's Fury. And I haven't had the chance to play this new attachment release yet, but rest assured, I will soon. And this explains what Nintendo had been doing with Mario after all this time since Odyssey. SMO was really good by the way. And so was NSMBU Deluxe. Still working on post game content for those games, however. Definitely planning to 100 percent NSMBU and NLU.
The celebration for Saga Frontier is coming also. And like when I celebrated SM3DW, I am hosting a SMM2 course making contest. However, I can't be as generous as I was then with gift subs. Honestly, that was a one time thing. But I am resolved to gift a tier 3 subscription to the winner for any Twitch TV channel they want. It's an often underutilized subscription tier, but there are some partnered streamers out there that have fantastic emotes, and I'm doing a nod to them by obligating myself to this proposal. If you do not know, partnered streamers are able to offer a greater quantity of emotes to their subscribers than affiliated streamers. And this quantity extends to tier 2 and tier 3 emotes of course. As it is, the winner of the previous contest chose to get their gift to my channel, since they knew that a portion of the money would go to my channel directly, while the rest goes to Twitch.
My physical health and my diet are difficult for me to talk about, but originally I made this blog so that I would not have to repeat myself about this kind of thing so for this log I will also discuss these things.
This winter, when around the time when the snow hit, I got constipated. Now, I ended up having a sort of explosion of liquid coming from my bladder as it was full. I do not believe my colon was full, as I was led to fear that it was as has happened many times in the past. However, at one point or another I had eaten some refried beans and they were not digested very well. Furthermore, they made me feel like my colon was crammed too tightly with beans as if it was a can of beans itself. It was extremely disturbing of course but it wasn't a particularly new experience for me. The new part was the bladder fullness feeling. Although I have to say, the pain all around was extremely hard to bear and I wished I could just die without pain. I doubt that will happen. If I die, I will presumably be in a lot of pain. It's grim to think about, but I suppose the will to live and do good is strong enough that the pain cannot be dulled. Any attempt to dull the pain just ends up in failure if not outright backfiring.
In any case, I believe it is moderately plausible that I have type 1 Diabetes, if type 1 Diabetes even exists the way doctors think it does. There are a few problems here. One problem is I don't want to inject myself with insulin. Another is that sugar isn't the only thing that can be problematic for me. But everything I know about it fits what's wrong with me. The problem is that there's a lot more to it than that. So, I'm resolving to try to eat as healthily as I can. And one of the ways I'm improving my diet is to add sunflower oil to some vegetables and fry them. Instead of just eating them without additional fat content. I'm also trying to be more careful about ingesting herbs and peppers since they have helped problems along more often than solving them. I would go into more detail about it, but I do not have conclusive information on these things at the moment.
Another thing I started eating recently was sunflower butter. And I'm not joking when I say it looks and smells like peanut butter. I stopped eating peanut butter because well there was a time when that was the only thing in the house that we hadn't eaten that could be eaten as it was. Back when my parents were distracted and hadn't been giving us enough food each week. Food is very complicated. Perhaps through overeating of that particular source of protein I developed an emotional aversion, or perhaps it is something else. But for whatever reason, so far this SFB has been good to me.
I've tried and tried to take in milk, whether whole or not, whether lactose free or not, and I keep getting similar results. My body doesn't want the sugar in the milk. I can only say that this has to be attributed to my 'type 1 Diabetes' or similar illness. My body goes through some really annoying experiences when I consume some sugar that doesn't agree with me. And it seems like it's especially bothersome when it comes to tapioca and nuts. And that includes sugar from peanuts. I did an experiment recently, I had 2 packs of spinach, and I ate one with some cane juice(derived from a can of fruit, in this case blueberries, but that's not particularly relevant since I've determined that blueberry sugar is safe to eat for me or at least safer than other kinds), and another with sunflower oil. Now, spinach naturally has some sugar in it, but my body seems to be able to handle it just fine when I eat it alone. In fact, it really appreciates it. I'm not sure how helpful or how neutral adding oil to it is, but it's clear to me from the experiment that it's better than adding cane to it. My body was actually surprisingly fast about purging the cane, probably because it was eaten with the fiber from the spinach.
I do not pretend to understand what type 2 diabetes is, but I've been watching some YouTube videos, and if what I'm being told is true, it sounds like 'a typical diabetes sufferer' has a problem of self-control that I do not have. They can eat sugar and gain weight. They can also get energy from exercising. It is argued that they have trouble losing weight because their stored fat does not get recognized as a source of energy from their bodies. But that doesn't sound like an illness to me, just an overabundance of food. They say that if you stop eating, or better yet, stop eating sugar, you can keep on using fat and protein as nutrients. I think this talk is primarily directed at hunger issues. Your body is hungry so even though it has energy, it's blind to it. If you fast long enough, your body will adapt and start consuming the fat you have built up in your body.
If all of that is true, then type 2 Diabetes as far as I can tell does not deserve to be acknowledged as a condition. How is it any different from a properly working weight managed body? The properly working weight managed body can recognize all sources of food energy. I am pretty sure my body can't do that. All a type 2 Diabetic needs to do is stop eating? That's a joke of an illness if I've ever heard one.
Now, part of me wonders, is it possible that my type 1 Diabetes condition or whatever you want to call it is also self-inflicted? Would that be, then it would also be possible that aside from takin insulin to be okay? If it were a simple matter of these conditions being opposites to each other, then you'd think that would be true but it does not appear to be. But what's more concerning is a general lack of sensitivity to the dietary needs of someone like me.
Now, I remember being recommended to me to try Amaranth flour and so I did. People argued that skinnier people just need lots of carbohydrates and to be perfectly honest, even though I went through an entire pound of that stuff, it really didn't seem to help my body, it kind of felt worse. And the awkward thing is that it's not like I thought it tasted bad. My conclusion is that my body doesn't really want carbohydrates that much and it would rather have protein/fat primarily. That might have something to do with some sort of anti-sugar thing but the question is, is this really involving the pancreas being attacked by my own immune system? I don't know, and even if it does, can't I do something to help the pancreas besides just taking insulin as some sort of cheat code? Wouldn't taking the cheat code do more harm than good?
What I know for sure is that often times, medical practices do not address core issues, they address superficial issues. And I suspect the same is the case with insulin. Unfortunately, at least in the English speaking repository of knowledge that we have on the internet, as far as I can tell, there is no alternative treatment. And this is a seriously big deal so I guess at least for now, I'm on my own for figuring out a way out of this mess.
But at the same time I can't be too optimistic. Even if there is a way to reverse the condition, there's no telling how long it would take to figure it out. I wonder what people that take insulin think about type 1 Diabetes. I feel like the people that realize they have this condition are in a great minority among the world. Most people seem to have no problem gaining weight and is insulin injection just another path to gain weight? I don't even know, there are a lot of unanswered questions right now, and I should probably try to do some more research before I conclude that I have that condition.
It's hard to find reliable information about this stuff. As an example, I'm very allergic to the sugar in such things as apples and grapes, just as I am to it in tapioca. And such things are actually on a list to help the pancreas be healthy. Various suggestions to improve health are probably worse than batting averages.
I will continue to try to be healthier and in the meantime I will continue to share some of my experiences with anyone that would like to find out about them. That might include some video editing, but most of what I've been doing lately is streaming Twitch because that is something that is a lot easier for me. However, if you would like to get together with me and talk about video editing ideas or help me with the process, you're more than welcome to chat with me about it on my communications server. You can also just join the server if you want to chat about things in the web log in general.
