getting in touch with my 'inner native american'

pondering over my attraction to more than one female from similiar bloodlines as me, i've begun to appreciate what sort of person i am better.  the kind of person who seems to understand and who is able to appreciate such movies as pocahontus, ferngully, insurrection, and avatar better than others.

i have abilities that others do not have.  i have accustomed myself to the earth differently.  for example, my sensitivity to vibrations is far higher than the average american.  case in point: you can feel cars coming behind you while walking on the road even as clearly as someone who had eyes in the back of their head, if you have a sensitivity like mine.

as a boy, i was quite ignorant of what kind of person i am.  but as i've seen myself do various things in my memory, i have become far more aware of who i am.  and it's interesting.  i'm not who i used to think i am.  i'm actually liking myself more and more the more i understand myself.

i just wish i would have been learning who i am more quickly.  even now, there are things i'm not certain about.  but one thing is for sure, i've been wrong about a great many things over the course of my life.  ignorance is not bliss.