Monday, October 15, 2018

Online gaming communication services of our modern day

In an effort to make my blog a little less about me and more about helping other people learn something, I figure it's time to start blogging information that is more suitable to the average person. Who knows, maybe more of my friends will read my blogs since it's like my blog world no longer revolves around me and has more of something they are interested in finding out.

For this web log, allow me to explain some of the programs I use online and how they work and what they are used for. In the process of writing this log, I have determined that the flavor of this post will be slanted heavily towards "teams" and not so much the other things.


Steam. Not the stuff in the kitchen. Because this is the name of a game downloading service, a browser, a friend-based chatting service, and a company that sells games and in-game content for free-to-play games as well as the non-free-to-play games.

I remember when I first started using Steam. It was only because there was only one game on there I was interested in playing? Wait, nope...that's actually not when I first started using Steam. I am pretty sure although I don't remember it clearly, that I started using it as just a chatting service rather than anything else. Yeah, because it's super popular and sometimes your online contact just wants to communicate on one of their most-used communications services.

Does that mean Steam is a great service to use for chatting? No, not at all. It's okay. It has some dark mode chat as default and many programs do not, so it has that going for it. People that spend a lot of time on computer games will be able to appreciate how easy and quick it is to read messages with Steam's default chat mode. So, there's certainly nothing in particular that's wrong with it. But it's just an extra, important and necessary service attached to what Steam is primarily used for, and that's a place where you can go to play various games.

But how's the Steam community? IMHO, very terrible. The vast majority of Steam players are very rude to put it mildly and even a relatively calm and sensible person may eventually transform into a hostile person from too much exposure to what many of you may know as either 'toxic players' or 'bad association' or perhaps you have your own term for it? In any case, due to a pattern of bad behavior from immature people on those servers, I mostly just play either single player games or 1 vs 1 games on Steam nowadays. Long gone are the days where I would regularly serve as a diplomat with little to no thanks for my efforts in a game where teamwork was important? Well, no, that's not entirely true, because Steam isn't the only platform where I can play some team strategy games!


Riot Games. They only have one game ironically enough. They don't really pride themselves on proper English and you don't have to look any further than their company name to figure that out. However, one thing that I've noticed over the years while studying video game companies is that they excel at communicating. They have a general idea how important communication is, so they make some efforts to control their players in that regard. I won't get into details about that because this is a blog about communication rather than punishment. In any case, the only game service they have available is their team strategy game, League of Legends.

I believe it's still the most popular game in North America when it comes to team strategy games. And I believe the primary reason for that lies in the general toxic mindset of the average United States citizen. Such behavior is not welcome on Riot's LoL servers, and as such, the game serves as a bit of a safe zone, where someone like me can practice their diplomacy skills and not in vain. I've received recognition for my efforts on a regular basis, even though it hasn't been public recognition, but from individual players and from the game itself when it passes along feedback about statistics of being honored by players.

Their chat services are very similar to Steam chat services, although I will comment that even though LoL supports voice chat in game, Dota 2 has superior voice chat enabled for the Steam platform. Although I will mention that there are much, much better services for voice chat than Dota 2, it's still a decent starting point of comparison. Both games allow tags or nicknames in case you would otherwise have difficulty remembering a player appropriately through their username and/or the rest of their profile. And both games have emotes in place, although I have to admit that in Dota 2, they are definitely steering towards the obnoxious with how they are being implemented. Furthermore, Dota 2 literally has ads while you're playing the game, as well as gambling as a side game while you play, such as predicting the winner of the game and they also support a subscription-based matchmaking which they didn't in the past but throughout its history, they have tainted their own product with favoritism. League of Legends has different issues however.

So, what's wrong with LoL? To be honest, I haven't given it that much effort to figure out yet. I think one of the biggest things they struggle with is transparency in showing their players what's going on that could be improved on. There's a lot of 'ear-tickling' to players, doing their best to reward everyone with acknowledgement of their job well done performances, no matter how helpful their teammates were that may have influenced those performances. To fix that wouldn't have anything to do with changing their communication style, but rather to more accurately assess team fight contribution and honestly as I know, there are no team strategy companies actually in any kind of race to do it.

Years ago, I tried to get a rank in LoL, I don't even remember what was going on in my life at the time, but I remember enough to know that I had computer troubles. I disconnected and got credit for losing a match that I helped my team win in the end, among other things that went wrong, not that such things necessarily influenced the result by much. Who knows. However, it's worth pointing out that the very popular game streaming service "twitch.tv" is influenced more by a player actually playing ranked than by other things as far as I can tell. So I'm going to start regularly playing ranked LoL and hopefully get some more viewers into my channel from that.


On the twitch scene, the majority of my viewers come to watch me play cards. I know a part of that is those card game communities are smaller, and I have less competition. But I also know that if I was more skilled at such games then I would have an easier time getting viewers.

Let's go tackle the stuff you probably want to know about twitch? Not yet, I'm not done talking about video game companies yet.


First, let me break up the discussion of cards a bit. I was going through computer troubles and because of that, I started playing Hearthstone. What's Hearthstone? It's a free to play collectible card game online. No clutter in your room from cards while deck constructing which was potentially eating up too much time in attempting to keep things tidy. I've been playing card games since I was very small. I remember even in preschool, my teacher had me playing cards and I think perhaps even some relatives were playing cards with me in order to develop my understanding of some things, as well as to train my mind. I was impressing older people apparently, but there's always a bigger fish as Qui-Gon Jinn would say.


Blizzard. Not the cold storm that you're worried about in winter. Because this is the gaming company that makes Hearthstone. This is the third company I'm mentioning in this blog and it will hold a special place in many gamer's hearts, even if they no longer play their games anymore for many reasons. South Korea as a general gaming population turned Starcraft --which is a Blizzard game-- into the first major E-sport. That is, an electronic sport to be played. League of Legends and Dota 2 are both also recognized as big E-sport games.

Hearthstone is interesting in that it actually isn't recognized as an E-sport but is wildly popular. To be honest, I've played card games that were more fun, but this one isn't hurting overall on the interesting game play experience. You can pay money to speed up card collecting or you can do it much more slowly if you're actually enjoying it or have nothing better to do. Given the economy of the game, it's more difficult to invest in it nowadays than it used to be, and there are better options IMHO that you can go to if you have limited time on your hands. But I don't have a good reason to discuss all the various card game options and their pros and cons in this blog post, so perhaps in the next one I will tackle that.

Blizzard's card game has a relatively limited chat experience, and the emotes are very interesting and sometimes very well done, while other times they are generally super cringe-worthy. You can link your Facebook account and get friends over Blizzard's App that way, and you can find out what your friends are playing, whether it's Hearthstone or one of their other games.

Blizzard has WoW(World of Warcraft) that's free to try, then you have to start paying to get past the introductory progression level, which I only played to get myself the Hearthstone Paladin class' alternate hero art, which simply meant bringing a single class to the point where you can't progress any further without payment. The game is actually not interesting and the only explanation I can offer for as to why people play it is they like reading books because there are small tidbits of story that you can unlock while you play the game and complete quests, but in actuality, there's nonsense afoot because the game effectively has no classes. You can make any class do a job that's basically asking for a skill-set/interest from a completely different class. IMHO, it's a very poorly designed game that apparently did some things better than its competitors did, but that's not saying much considering how incredibly boring those games were. I'm more critical than your average person would be however because I actually played a lot of role-playing games, in particular, the higher-quality ones and I can assure you, the only thing this game has over most high-quality RPGs is that it is simply another genre, the massively multiplayer RPG genre. The genre is in my opinion, emphatically inferior. That's not to say that it would be impossible to change that opinion, but this game certainly doesn't change it.

Blizzard has OW(Overwatch) which is their style of a shooter game that I've never been particularly interested in, is a pay-once-to-play game from what I know of it, and it apparently gives special powers to the characters to spice it up and make it more interesting than it would be otherwise. The simplest way to explain it would be "what if all the team shooter players had their own Final Fantasy class flavor?" or something like that. I haven't really been tempted to play this game, but if a twitch viewer ever donated to me with the express wish that I try it, I most certainly would without complaint.

Blizzard has 4 other 'relatively popular franchises': Diablo, Warcraft, Starcraft, and Heroes of the Storm. I don't play Diablo, Warcraft is a dead franchise thanks to WoW --I may have to do a YouTube video explaining why I call it dead as well as a separate franchise from WoW even though the HotS interface considers WoW and the Warcraft strategy games the same franchise-- existing, I don't play Diablo as I consider it boring and weird, Starcraft is a phenomenon that has partially burned out in my mind but is still an interesting game if one wants to be a high-energy player, and Heroes of the Storm is another team strategy game, and since communication is very important in team strategy games and this post is about communication online, I will have to just skip over the big 3 game franchises(even though I had some cool things to mention about Warcraft in the previous blog) for now that I just mentioned as they are not particularly important for the information I'm trying to get across.

Heroes of the Storm. Not related in any way to the precipitation cycle that makes sure all the crops get moist. The storm is a fictional thing, something in an alternate universe that steals characters from other universes, which explains in story why Blizzard is able to bring in characters from all their franchises. Something that actually makes a lot of sense and is something that both Riot Games and Steam have failed to deliver in any particularly sensible way for their team strategy games.

Just talking about its name deserved an entire paragraph. HotS is a game that ironically has been designed astonishingly well, which compared to the amount of effort that has gone into it, has largely been ignored by computer game players. As a result, the player base is amazingly toxic and weak-willed compared to the player bases for Dota 2 and LoL. I'm not currently playing HotS, but if I had reliable friends that are good at strategy games to play it with me, I most certainly would. At the moment, for the average player like me, the gaming environment just isn't supportive of us going solo if that makes any sense. LoL just has more to offer, but I really like this game a lot and wish I could get more out of it.

Like LoL and Dota 2, you can voice chat with people, but it's also something that a lot of people ignore, while in Dota 2 you are defaulted to listening to other people. Meanwhile, in LoL, you only voice chat with people that are in your group. So in Dota 2, people can tell others if they are going to be muting whoever, but in HotS, we just have no information about those kinds of things for the most part. Now in LoL and Dota 2, because of the game's design, you'd think that wouldn't be too much of a problem because there are small moments of downtime in LoL that you can use to your advantage sometimes to send very short messages or slightly longer ones if you have higher WPM typing skills, and in Dota 2 there is actually a pause system which many players don't respect and therefore violate, but the funcationality is there. But in HotS, you don't really have time to talk to other players through keyboard chat. You can sometimes send very short messages, but there's so much constant action that it's honestly pretty easy to either ignore those messages or be ignored yourself.

But I insist that it's not the game design's fault, it's the developers that don't know how to implement a better-working communications system that are to blame. The core problem is they are trying to use similar rules for communicating that LoL uses, even though the game design is very different. IOW, whoever designed the chat in HotS made mistakes and they need to rework or overhaul it. I like a lot about the game and they do a lot to surprise me, so I doubt it's really my place to tell them how to fix that, but I'm sure if they realized just how much of a problem it was they would actually fix it. It's probably just a matter of time. I'm not sure why until now I didn't realize just how much of an issue it is, but it's there. I'm not sure exactly what direction they could take, but I have some ideas although they aren't really all that important for this post.


So, since I brought to your attention the 3 big team strategy games that I've played, you probably are wondering if I'm going to go into more detail about twitch.tv, right? Not quite time yet.

There's one more company that I didn't mention yet that is very relevant, and its game is not on Steam, so it's worth mentioning it even though I'm going to leave out mentioning other games that share a lot of similarity to it for this post.

Pokemon. That's right, the Pocket Monsters. They have a card game. It's online. It's free to play. And instead of the card crafting system that Hearthstone uses, they have a trading system. A lot of the cards you might get are trade-locked, but since you can acquire trade-unlocked cards without spending any money, the progression in this game has an unusual acceleration curve potential for players, especially if they are good or simply have generous friends.

On twitch, many streamers will try to promote themselves by offering giveaways to their viewers. I've received most of my donations this way. Which means, not a donation that was given specifically from a viewer to a streamer. However, as a streamer, I've received a few donations from viewers in my channel's chat box, even though as far as I know, they don't watch me regularly. Interesting, isn't it? Of course, it's easy for partnered streamers to do giveaways because they get donated a lot of stuff! You can find out a little bit more about what that's like later on as I will provide a relevant link.

My friend asked me which card game was I playing exactly. So let me explain. Wizards of the Coast made numerous card games, including Pokemon and MTG. MTG is an extremely popular card game that is played anywhere that paying large sums of money for hobbies is popular and card games are played. Pokemon as a card game was developed with a lot of issues, so it's far from an especially pleasing experience overall, but it's surprisingly entertaining compared to Hearthstone simply because it's easier to acquire the cards you want to play with through the trading system. WotC sold their intellectual property which is the card game to the Pokemon company. Which means it has changed a lot about the game to make it more fun and a better hobby to invest in than it used to be. Smaller community, therefore less competition, and it's easier to get noticed.


I think we're at the point where it's time to mention one more company before going into more detail about Twitch. It's technically not a gaming company, but this company like Facebook has been a very big influence in my life over the past decade or so. Facebook has been fantastic, don't get me wrong, it has been amazing and I wouldn't trade my experiences on there for anything, but there's stuff I've got from YouTube that I honestly can't say I would have got anywhere else. I can't even begin to explain how influential it has been not only for me, but upon a huge population of the entire world. So I won't even try.

Instead, let me link you to my YouTube channel's video listing and a few related videos.
Keep in mind I'm aware that the recording quality for some of these videos is not good. Some of them are quite old after all and I am still learning how to record and edit properly, I'm sure there's always going to be more to learn for quite some time more. Also, I'm aware that in at least one of these videos I was being a bit foul-mouthed, I'm trying to improve on that but I've sustained some really frustrating online friendships over the years.

The video directory. (iNsOmNiAcAnDrEw was my old Starcraft username but I changed my YouTube name to GreenRay to match my Hearthstone/HotS username)
A LoL highlights video. (This one is edited to include Starcraft music and some comments about the plays in it, will definitely continue putting in comments, not sure one way or the other about the music)
A sample game from Pokemon cards online. (this game has a rotating standard and expanded format, so some of these videos might be from obsolete decks)
A sample game from another card game called Faeria. (as you can tell from this video, it has balance issues, but it's been fun besides that)
A sample game from another card game called Shadowverse. (it was a draft mode, this is what some people would call the "Japanese Hearthstone" but it's not quite that simple)
A sample game from Hearthstone. (this features Reno Jackson who is famous among Hearthstone players, to find out why you can watch my game, but there's also a music video parody of him you can watch that I had nothing to do with personally but if you like Hearthstone, you should definitely watch it!)
A single highlight from Heroes of the Storm. (this is the shortest video link I have here and it has some music that I was listening to at the time I was streaming)

Now, some of these videos, like the Shadowverse video, show my face with a webcam, or maybe a dancing 'ray avatar' or other things that indicate this was extracted from a live stream on twitch.tv. I can export videos to YouTube directly, or I can download them and edit them further. In the case of that LoL video however, the interface will show that the highlights came from the game's highlight function. So, it was not necessary for me to record the games live on twitch.tv since there's replay functionality in the game. Finally, you've arrived at the point where I'm going to comment on the online television service.


Twitch. Not a jerking or convulsive movement. This is a streaming service intended for gaming. Many players are able to generate a lot of money using it. Even though I don't have a job at twitch yet, I spend a lot of time on their website watching other streamers and learning how I can do better work as an entertainer. Yes, I'm attempting to entertain people online through more than just YouTube! YouTube would be a great place for me to generate exposure for my twitch channel if I were to actually be a better YouTube user than I am now. I'm currently a power clipper(previously known as clip champ) for YourPrincess, and the statistics support the influence YouTube has had on her streaming channel in an interesting and encouraging way for anyone that can make good YouTube content and get some reliable exporting of information from it for others, which I hope to be me one day.

Twitch channels can host other channels, to help keep the channels like mine without a schedule pumping out content for viewers, or to help give smaller channels like mine(which happens a bit in the card games I play at times) a little extra exposure from the bigger channels. So that streamer I just mentioned is on my hosting list if you want to stick around and see her. Is a streamer from California that plays LoL, in case you're wondering about the details. So if you show up to my channel, you might not always see me streaming. Why not give me a call someway and show me you would like to watch me play something if you're not finding the channel I'm hosting interesting enough? I would appreciate it and if I'm not busy I'm sure I can change whatever plans I had for that day to accommodate you. If you cared enough to read this far into this post, you are undoubtedly someone that at the very least enjoys my style of communication on some minor level and would probably be a good audience member for my stream.

At this very moment my chat box is popped out on my secondary monitor, and you can type "!day" without quotation marks into the chat as a message and the bot will update you on my current status where I live with a weather report. You might also see some twitter-generated public messages from one of the bots since I've got that programmed in since I don't visit that site all that much and would otherwise miss some of those messages. That's mostly for my own purposes and not others, it's something that might pop up. In any case, it tells me when my channel has stopped hosting someone(their channel is no longer live or I canceled the hosting due to starting my own stream or changing host selection), as well as whom it is currently hosting and other important notifications as well like if someone is hosting my channel or if I have a new follower.

Saying hello can be just as simple as asking the chat robot for a weather report for the city I live in! And there are many other commands that streamers can program the bots for to make things a bit easier. There are also default commands, like /ban or /timeout which help to discipline or punish unruly viewers. And such commands are generally usable by any volunteer moderators.

Right now I don't really have any online friends available that I can trust to moderate my channel, but my channel's community is so small right now that it would be completely unnecessary to have anyone do it besides myself. Some bigger streamers have many moderators, and they have options for their channel to regulate the content of course, including but not limited to restricting chat to followers only or subscribers only and that kind of thing. I have that option too of course, but it would obviously be pointless and really, even if I was a bigger streamer, I would have to be careful about such restrictions if I really cared about the community and also those outside the community or just less dedicated to it. I saw one guy streaming from Japan that would just enable follower only mode just for when he wanted to do a giveaway then would turn it off after that business was over, so that made sense for what he was doing as an example.

I'm not really an expert twitch user yet, so allow me to post a YouTube video of a top Hearthstone streamer explaining a lot about how the economy works on this television service.

As you can see, there's reason to believe that I could definitely make gaming a part-time job. But it's going to take a lot of work for me to accomplish. I know many players such as  Disguised Toast(the maker of that economy video), YourPrincess(I jokingly refer to her as ZergPrincess because she's generally role-playing as an aggressive champion in LoL, but she prefers to be called Jayden), and Faellu(first twitch.tv channel that I became a regular viewer of, she is a variety streamer that was streaming Hearthstone primarily at the time) have worked much harder than I have at this and they are very successful for a great many reasons. And I'm sure some of you may think(if you've even read this far) that I can't become an affiliate, much less a partner. And maybe you're right. But I can at least try.

So for now, that's my main focus, getting a job streaming games. And it's been so for a while, but I haven't communicated this very effectively to many of my friends, which is why I decided it's owed to all of you to make this blog. And I'm sorry that it has taken me so long to do so. To be fair, my health has been so miserable that I'm not sure my focus would have been strong enough to come up with all of this. In any case, I hope you'll look forward to my next blog which I can't make a promise on when I'll make it, but assuming I remember to review this blog before I make it or I simply remember normally, then I'll make it about card games online specifically in order to generate some interest in some of the stuff I like to play for my friends. Because I enjoy playing cards with my friends and it would be nice to have more of that than what I'm currently experiencing.

My username there is RayTeamStrategy, and this is the channel.
The username is a play on words. Real-Time Strategy is a genre of game which Starcraft(one of my first great "PC gaming loves" if you want to call it that) is in, among other games, and Team Strategy games are the genre of game I like to think I have a special talent for.


You might think that twitch.tv was the last thing I could possibly explain when it comes to communication. If you thought that, I wouldn't blame you. It's been a long blog already, and to think that there's more would be quite the assumption indeed. But there's more.

Discord. Not a disagreement between people. Incorrectly derived from the word discourse it seems. It's a place you go to discuss gaming in particular, for it is a communications program built for the gamer. And it's free. It's an amazing service that I feel like people would pay money for if they had to, but it's free. The server is free. I suppose you can make purchases on Discord to suit your purposes and get some value out of that, but for the most part, there's nothing to pay for. I think you can do a subscription so that you can use emotes from other servers and/or programs or something like that and I don't know there might be more stuff, but everything I need to communicate as a gamer is here and I don't have to pay anything for it.

I can invite an unlimited number of people to my server. I have chat channels set up to discuss various genres of games, I can assign members of the server to various roles to indicate what kinds of games they like to play. I can do a lot of cool things with it, but in the end I could always use more people that I know in real life on that server. I can talk to you just as readily as I would on the phone, with the exception that my phone doesn't work with Discord. But I know some gamers whose phones work with Discord and I've even talked with at least one friend that I met online over Discord using my computer and their phone.

There are voice channels on my server so voice chat can happen while playing cards together to make the game a bit friendlier, and there is also the possibility of teamwork being enhanced by voice chat, which I took advantage of during the recent League of Legends quest in order to defeat a rotating game mode boss on the highest difficulty possible with a specific handicap for each player. I remember literally talking on mobile phones with one of my friends while playing 2 vs 2 Starcraft back in the day, and it was glorious. And all this can happen on the computer without any kind of phone bill.

Of course, I have a phone bill and if you are my friend on Facebook, you have access to that phone number that I'm using. But it's unrelated to Discord and mostly irrelevant to me when it comes to my gaming activities. I can actually sometimes voice chat with the opposite sex on Discord because we have a common interest! We play the same game, although there's usually more required than just that, it's still a lot easier than trying to talk to such people over the phone!

I know what you're thinking, "but did Discord help him get him a romantic relationship?" Okay, smarty-pants, you're right. I'm still single and ready to mingle or whatever you like to call it. But from what I can tell, the opposite sex is interested in men that have a job. So I can't allow mindless chasing after the wind to be a priority to me. I'm tired of wasting time. I want to do work. And for now, it seems the most viable work that I can do is entertaining through twitch. But Discord is a great place to communicate with me and anyone else you play games with. It's definitely far superior to any in-game voice chat service I've run across. And none of the other voice chat programs even compare to it because it's so superior in so many ways. I'm not going to detail out why it's so good, but it's truly amazing and a must-use program if you enjoy playing games on the computer regularly IMO.

Twitch TV has its competitors and I could argue for or against twitch for whether streamers should or shouldn't use their streaming service(I've found out recently that a YouTube user I've subscribed to switched to Facebook for streaming of all platform possibilities), but I can't imagine liking a voice chat program better than Discord, and as an overall communications platform it seems completely peerless to me. Facebook has voice chat now and I've used it a little bit and that definitely helps Facebook step up its game, but it's meant for a different audience and doesn't really suit the gamer's needs appropriately most of the time from what I can tell.

You can join a discord server from just a link and chat through your browser, and you can also download the app for an improved experience. And here's the permanent link to my server, Stronger Together.

If you'd like to share your gaming experiences, you can post screenshots in general chat as an example. I do that myself from time to time. Usually I know who people are(roughly at least) immediately when they join, but let me interrupt this web-log-post-making for a moment to make another chat channel specifically for people that might not want to post directly in a general chat to explain who they are, because then whether myself or someone else is confused about who someone is, they might be able to find out there. Would make the server a little less confusing for newcomers to it I guess for every post in there.

Nothing we can do will be perfect. All we can do is our best to make what we do as perfect as possible. In other words, try to improve and look around you for examples, because there's always someone to learn from. Good and bad examples of various things are everywhere. And I'm hoping you'll find something to like about my Discord server or my Twitch channel. Either way, I'd appreciate any feedback you can give me so that I can figure out an improvement.


The nice thing about twitch and discord is that I have a lot of control over such things because I'm the administrator on my own channel and on my own server respectively. And not everyone may know this, but I like being in control. But there's more to building a community than just trying to control everything. You need people in it, and I know that controlling people is generally not a thing we should aspire to, even if my oldest email account's username would suggest otherwise(it was an ode to Civilization/Starcraft which are strategy games) which was dcttr66, dictator without the vowels, followed by 2 sixes because that's how many letters are in my first and last names. I think 6ray6 is a good improvement, but keep in mind I have many aliases(usernames) so don't try to use the same one somewhere else again and again and expect to always get it right!

Tuesday, July 24, 2018

trying to build a gaming community

Anyone that knows me well would know that roughly 9 years ago my world ended as I knew it when I lost my job. Since that time I have relegated myself to a gaming life and it has been bumpy to say the least. I spent a lot more time online with the computer and during that time I learned to be my own doctor by conducting research on various things by reading articles from medical examiners/practitioners or whatever you'd like to call them. Honestly, the medical field is difficult to navigate and there's a lot of scamming going on if you ask me.

Most people don't know their right from their left when it comes to proper health. I used to think stuff like oats was good for me when in fact it was killing me. And it's no different when it comes to video games. I've dabbled in video game design with the Warcraft III World Editor and I have to say although I didn't make much progress in that regard, it taught me a lot about gaming and I've also been visiting twitch.tv a lot to interact with other streamers and help them build their communities. I've been a moderator for an affiliated Creative streamer(she has been painting for fun) and a clip champ for a partnered League of Legends streamer for quite some time now and I think it's about time I try to build my own gaming community.

I have been variety gaming lately, as I haven't been qualified to do as much as I'd like to in the real world. So normally if you want to get good at a game you shouldn't do variety gaming, but I have too much time for gaming so I'm at least half-good at many games. And the ones I'm not half-good at I don't mind so much, sometimes. But I'm also a somewhat picky gamer. I don't like violence for the sake of violence, that kind of thing doesn't rub me the right way. And there are other things that just don't tickle my fancy.

If you're reading this far, you might know me on Facebook and if that's the case you may like playing video games. If you think it could be fun to watch me play, then please consider joining my discord and you'll get notified when I'm streaming and you can then watch me play and chat with me. Honestly, it would mean so much to me to have my friends help me build my gaming community. I want clean association, meaningful conversations, I want to feel like I'm me again and I feel like to do that I need to be surrounded by my friends. 

potato chips are great

I have been eating Lays, the Simply style of them that is. Good chips. I don't have the patience for cooking potatoes so It's nice to grab a bag and munch on them that way. Also I can use the oil and even the salt is good for summer time.

I.B.S. is still ever-present with me but I think if I ate more it might go away. Haven't been bleeding for quite some time now but all it would take is eating the wrong thing and I'd be in big trouble. I've been constipated(as well as having Diarrhea) in recent times without bleeding and I think I can chalk it up to simply not eating as balanced as I could be.

Hoping to get a job to somehow pay for more food but I need a relatively light energy assignment.

I'm also loving dates with pits in them. So much better than the others. Not only do they seem to have better shelf-life but they also have more fruit for each date as the mechanical pit removing devices don't do a good job of removing the pits and remove a lot of the fruit too. Plus it's probably better to just remove the pits in a bacteria-using way with your mouth and hands.

I've wondered about mayo and at the moment I'm eating some that only has egg yolk and oil and sugar and such in it whereas for some reason a lot of mayo products have egg white in them which is not really what I'm looking for. Might not be the healthiest thing ever but it sure is interesting to mix it with some salsa and some mustard, comes out like that sauce for the Big Mac.

And I've been eating meat candy. The walks at times feel like they take a lot out of my muscles and such so I'll buy some beef jerky, it has sugar and salt in it and I'm not a fan of the sugar but it's not too bad if I drink some kefir with it since there are some probiotics in that.

Wednesday, September 14, 2016

Thinking about food again - featuring my rediscovery of cinnamon



Pain is amazing at blocking out memories. I forgot how I used to eat some cinnamon mixed with sugar, as others in my family did. We would put some bread out to bake in the conventional/microwave oven, we would put some sort of butter on it, and then some cinnamon and sugar mixture on top of the butter. It tasted good, but it was not a very good snack plan in hindsight. What was good about it was the cinnamon I think.


I remembered the habit when wandering around a QFC looking for a type of ice cream that might be suitable since they didn't carry the frozen cheesecake(which includes both carob and cinnamon) anymore that I liked. I didn't find any suitable ice cream, but in the same aisle was the cinnamon, Kroger brand. I was already recently drinking some tea that includes cinnamon in it, and I love the smell and the tea makes my body feel good, so I figured cooking with cinnamon is a good idea.


And that’s why I went ahead and bought a small can of cinnamon, despite my bitter nostalgia. It's odd to me because QFC chooses which spices to carry from Frontier brand. Because they have their own brand, Kroger for cinnamon, they don't carry Frontier brand cinnamon. That's fine I guess, but the cinnamon shouldn't be in the ice cream section. It should be near the other spices which happen to be on the other side of the store.


So I was actually mixing carob into my flour lately when I fry up some bread, so why not try to do the very same thing with cinnamon? It tastes good, but it is very sticky. I’m wondering if there’e anything appropriate to counteract the stickiness with or if I should just accept it. Either way, I believe that as I continue to cook and try out old and new things, the pleasure that comes from my cooking shall increase.

So I now cook with a mixture of flours. I use teff, rice, and millet. I have to either add salt or add extra salt if I use millet.

I'm also enjoying dried fruits lately. Fruits that my body seemed to have great trouble digesting seem to be not such a big deal when they are dried first. It wasn't until I was an adult that I even tried prunes...wasn't until I had already begun having big problems with my body. Too late to make the most out of my time on the earth...but not too late to cling to life until the bitter end. And in the meantime, I can attempt to horde knowledge in the hope that it may be of benefit in the future.


Bananas for example, are probably a great example of a fruit that should be dried. It has a delicate timing window on when to eat it, or so I feel. Maybe not everyone agrees, and if that's the case, continue eating raw bananas. I'll take them dried, thanks. I'm also enjoying apricots. Not a fan of dried figs but to be fair, they still taste pretty good. The seeds annoy me, they are like a watermelon's baby. Seeds are everywhere.


All those weird wheat crackers, cookies, and other junk food really is junk food. Why buy a cheese or fruit flavored wheat product when you can just buy the real thing? And if you want some grain, why stop at wheat? If you can eat it, more power to you, but try something else once in a while and see if you can discover something you like better. If you don't find something you like better, at least you tried. And if you really tried hard, then perhaps merely the experience of trying those other grains will give you an idea of what it's like for people that can't eat wheat.


You can discover a favorite cheese or fruit or spice or whatever if you put your mind to it, and try to prepare food yourself instead of just buying into something that's popular. Even though I love the taste of corn chips and salsa for example, it's not something I should eat. I think we all need to make our food choices be our own food choices.

Wednesday, August 3, 2016

Another Blog, more thoughts laid out for the rest of you

I've strayed away from blogging quite a bit. One thing to keep in mind is that I do have another blog that I update sometimes found at http://playdota.com/forums/blog.php?u=15041 and that one is mostly for gaming. I also have been posting quite a lot of Hearthstone videos lately on YouTube so if you want to check that out, go ahead. https://www.youtube.com/user/iNsOmNiAcAnDrEw/videos

So, the other thing is that I've been writing entries into an offline journal periodically and I was beginning to think that perhaps some of what I'm posting on this blog is just for my personal use so why use it that way? Seems silly when I can keep offline notes instead. Yeah...electronic or hand-written, either way I should be taking more offline notes. And so I am doing so now. At any rate, my health has had its ups and downs and overall I'm still dissatisfied with my sleeping patterns. It's hard to establish a good polyphasic sleeping cycle for me but I really want to get back into that kind of routine.

Whatever the case I feel like there are times I just feel so bad and I'm not sure if it's eating habits that are the only thing to blame or not. Another thing to consider is my emotional state. I still don't have a girlfriend and I know that it hurts deep down inside not having such a relationship.

I may take part in this blog more often but for now I want to point out that I've been very busy with watching YouTube videos...it's gotten to the point where I listen to these videos and watch them and play games with people so much more than I've interacted with other people. The years are advancing and there's so much for people to share with one another and doing it online is great but person to person interactions are sorely missed.

I've been doing some work here and there and on the 8th there is a workshop event called Ticket to Work at Worksource that I'll be going to since I received in the mail a Ticket to Work. I'm not sure what it's going to be like but it's only an hour and a half long event so I guess I won't be worrying much about missing out on nap time if I want to shake up my sleeping cycle.

Thursday, October 22, 2015

Food and Gaming and Books

So I have gone from corn chips and salsa to taquitos and salsa to just pinto beans and salsa. I'm not eating meat at the moment, not even eggs, although I recently ate some shrimp and I might eat more of that later, I'm not sure. Today I had some of the best poop I have had in as long as I can remember. Soft and relatively big. The above and teff and yogurt have been all I have eaten, other than a mix of honey, royal jelly, and bee pollen. I might buy some more pearl onions since I probably am not getting enough protein from the small amount of onions in the salsa. Of course teff has protein as well but it's a different kind I think. I'm actually annoyed because as my colon feels great my face gets scales all over it. I know I could clear up my complexion significantly if I were to consume some chocolate, but I would imagine that doing so has the potential to damage my colon.

As for gaming...the new monitor seems to work rather well and the new mouse is fine I guess. I don't like the bright red light on top but it seems to be functioning fine. In Heroes of the Storm, I bought Abathur for 10,000 gold and won my first game that I played with him rather easily. I still have a little over 10,000 gold left and I'm thinking of getting Johanna, Kael'thas, Zeratul, or Thrall. And there are some cheaper heroes I'd like to get. In Dota 2, it seems like I can win if I make sure to pick the perfect support heroes to make sure my allies get an unfair advantage over our opponents. Every game makes me feel like I'm playing with total morons but if I apply my knowledge and am alert to what they need it's a lot easier. It's tough though since it's hard to be diplomatic and more often than not the clearest path to victory involves muting at least half your team. In League of Legends I tried playing Jinx but found it was hard to get a support for a team, so I checked in as support Jinx and went AP and won without much difficulty. A bit silly since she has only one ability that scales with AP and I didn't get the damage applied from it very often. I think perhaps the Essence Reaver is the best item for a support Jinx so maybe I'll try it next time. In Hearthstone I almost got Shaman to level 60 and I figure I might as well level up each class to that point. Tavern Brawl games seem harder than regular ones after the first day. This is mainly because a lot of the folks that play those Tavern Brawls seem to be higher ranking players with better collections. Perhaps as I try to level up classes I will start getting a higher rank? Eh, probably not.

I am almost done with the Star Wars book series I was working on for a while. I'm on the very last book now and to be honest it doesn't seem particularly interesting. It has a lot of fighting which would probably be more fun to watch than to read about, especially since there seems to be a lot of simple mistakes the author makes like calling columns rows and that kind of immature thing. It's a bit awkward how many mistakes I can spot in the average published book and how I don't always know for sure what the author really meant. As a reader, I don't like taking extra time trying to figure out what the writing should be, I should rather spend it trying to figure out what is being told. Such amateur work really makes one go through the process at a speed not desirable.

Tuesday, September 22, 2015

Diet and gaming update

Lately I've been trying to avoid excessive noise wherever possible.

Another tidbit is that I managed to save some money for computer parts and put together a desktop for gaming and can now play Dota 2 and Heroes of the Storm again.

I just ordered another couple of jars of specialized honey from supersup.com. Probably waited too long to do this! Anyway, it has royal jelly and bee pollen in it which help provide nourishment and energy to my body. I'm almost done eating my first 50 pounds of Teff from the Teff Company and will be ordering another 25 soon. I have lately not eaten as much white rice as I used to despite ordering a lot of it. I am currently thinking about additions to my diet. I'm trying to stay away from GMO and gluten the most. I'm thinking of maybe onions and lean beef? My body doesn't like potatoes and cabbage so much anymore and it has grown weary of beef hot dogs. Another proposition would be adding fish oil from Super Supplements into my diet, but I wonder if I should just start buying fish instead? Does fish go good with onions?

As a minor note, I am going to just use the rest of this blog as a backup source for my configuration files. I don't think I'll need it, but I might as well do it anyway. Anyone that doesn't play either of the above games might as well ignore the rest of this blog post.

//game_convars.vcfg
 "config"
{
    "convars"
    {
        "mat_motion_blur_enabled"    "0"
        "snd_foliage_db_loss"    "0"
        "exec"            "autoexec.cfg"
    }
}

//autoexec.cfg
alias chat0 "chat_wheel_phrase_0 20;chat_wheel_phrase_1 21;chat_wheel_phrase_2 14;chat_wheel_phrase_3 16;chat_wheel_phrase_4 78;chat_wheel_phrase_5 1;chat_wheel_phrase_6 17;chat_wheel_phrase_7 15;"
alias chat1 "chat_wheel_phrase_0 1;chat_wheel_phrase_1 83;chat_wheel_phrase_2 42;chat_wheel_phrase_3 45;chat_wheel_phrase_4 42;chat_wheel_phrase_5 84;chat_wheel_phrase_6 44;chat_wheel_phrase_7 58;"
alias chat2 "chat_wheel_phrase_0 70;chat_wheel_phrase_1 80;chat_wheel_phrase_2 69;chat_wheel_phrase_3 62;chat_wheel_phrase_4 75;chat_wheel_phrase_5 68;chat_wheel_phrase_6 64;chat_wheel_phrase_7 79;"
alias chat3 "chat_wheel_phrase_0 55;chat_wheel_phrase_1 36;chat_wheel_phrase_2 63;chat_wheel_phrase_3 35;chat_wheel_phrase_4 57;chat_wheel_phrase_5 81;chat_wheel_phrase_6 54;chat_wheel_phrase_7 37;"
alias "chatchangekeys_toggle" "chatseta_on"
alias "chatseta_on" "exec chatalternatelist.cfg; alias chatchangekeys_toggle chatseta_off"
alias "chatseta_off" "exec chatfirstlist.cfg; alias chatchangekeys_toggle chatseta_on"
"dota_health_per_vertical_marker" "333"
"dota_minimap_tower_defend_distance" "250"
bind "f4" "exec HH00.cfg"//default
bind "f5" "exec HH01.cfg"//6skillhero
bind "f6" "exec HH02.cfg"//autocasterA
alias "+heroabilitylearn" "dota_ability_learn_mode"
alias "-heroabilitylearn" "dota_learn_stats"
alias "+topruneview" "dota_camera_set_lookatpos -2520.607910 1695.889038"
alias "-topruneview" "+dota_camera_follow; +dota_camera_follow"
alias "+botruneview" "dota_camera_set_lookatpos 3177.680664 -2339.680420"
alias "-botruneview" "+dota_camera_follow; +dota_camera_follow"
alias "+smartshop" "toggleshoppanel"
alias "-smartshop" "toggleshoppanel"
bind "f3" "toggleconsole"
bind "z" "dota_courier_burst"
bind "c" "dota__select_courier"
dota_minimap_misclick_time "0"
dota_show_itempickups 0
dota_selector_fulldeck_mode 1
//dota_camera_disable_zoom "0"
dota_disable_showcase_view_button "1"
dota_hero_tooltip 1 //Style of the hero tooltip. 0 = Corner, 1(default) = Overhead, 2 = Inline overhead.
dota_hud_colorblind 1
dota_minimap_hero_size 625
dota_minimap_simple_colors 0
dota_minimap_simple_filter 1
dota_friendly_color_r_cb 1.0
dota_friendly_color_g_cb 1.0
dota_friendly_color_b_cb 1.0
dota_enemy_color_r_cb 0.596078431372549
dota_enemy_color_g_cb 0.4627450980392157
dota_enemy_color_b_cb 0.3294117647058824

//HH00.cfg
dota_player_units_auto_attack 0
dota_player_units_auto_attack_after_spell 1
dota_player_teleport_requires_halt 1
dota_player_add_summoned_to_selection 0
bind "u" "dota_ability_execute 0"
bind "h" "dota_ability_execute 1"
bind "m" "dota_ability_execute 2"
bind "r" "dota_ability_execute 5"
bind "MOUSE5" "+heroabilitylearn"
bind "d" "dota_item_execute 0"
bind "g" "dota_item_execute 1"
bind "j" "dota_item_execute 2"
bind "x" "dota_item_execute 3"
bind "v" "dota_item_execute 4"
bind "n" "dota_item_execute 5"
bind "." "dota_purchase_stickybuy"
bind "/" "stash_grab_all"
bind "," "dota_purchase_quickbuy"
bind "f" "dota_stop"
bind "k" "mc_attack"
bind "i" "mc_move"
bind "8" "+dota_camera_follow"//
bind "7" "dota_select_all"//selecting all your units
bind "6" "dota_select_all_others"//selecting all but hero
bind "5" "dota_courier_deliver"
bind "a" "+smartshop"
bind "4" "+voicerecord"//
bind "0" "dota_glyph"//
bind "SPACE" "dota_cycle_selected"
bind "MOUSE4" "+dota_camera_follow; +dota_camera_follow"//
bind "t" "+topruneview"
bind "y" "+botruneview"
bind "e" "+chatwheel; chat0"
bind "3" "+chatwheel; chat1"
bind "2" "+chatwheel; chat2"
bind "w" "+chatwheel; chat3"

//HH01.cfg
dota_player_units_auto_attack 0
dota_player_units_auto_attack_after_spell 0
dota_player_teleport_requires_halt 1
dota_player_add_summoned_to_selection 0
bind "d" "dota_ability_execute 0"
bind "f" "dota_ability_execute 1"
bind "g" "dota_ability_execute 2"
bind "h" "dota_ability_execute 3"
bind "j" "dota_ability_execute 4"
bind "k" "dota_ability_execute 5"
bind "t" "dota_item_execute 0"
bind "y" "dota_item_execute 1"
bind "u" "dota_item_execute 2"
bind "b" "dota_item_execute 3"
bind "n" "dota_item_execute 4"
bind "m" "dota_item_execute 5"
bind "." "dota_purchase_stickybuy"
bind "/" "stash_grab_all"
bind "," "dota_purchase_quickbuy"
bind "MOUSE5" "dota_stop"
bind "MOUSE4" "mc_attack"
bind "x" "mc_move"
bind "8" "+dota_camera_follow;+dota_camera_follow"//
bind "7" "dota_select_all"//selecting all your units
bind "6" "dota_select_all_others"//selecting all but hero
bind "5" "dota_courier_deliver"
bind "a" "+smartshop"
bind "4" "+voicerecord"//
bind "0" "dota_glyph"//
bind "SPACE" "dota_cycle_selected"
bind "r" "+topruneview"
bind "i" "+botruneview"
bind "e" "+chatwheel; chat0"
bind "3" "+chatwheel; chat1"
bind "2" "+chatwheel; chat2"
bind "w" "+chatwheel; chat3"

//HH02.cfg
 bind "f6" "exec HH03.cfg"
dota_player_units_auto_attack 0
dota_player_units_auto_attack_after_spell 1
dota_player_teleport_requires_halt 1
dota_player_add_summoned_to_selection 0
bind "u" "dota_ability_execute 0"
bind "h" "dota_ability_execute 1"
bind "m" "dota_ability_execute 2"
bind "r" "dota_ability_execute 5"
bind "MOUSE5" "+heroabilitylearn"
bind "d" "dota_item_execute 0"
bind "g" "dota_item_execute 1"
bind "j" "dota_item_execute 2"
bind "x" "dota_item_execute 3"
bind "v" "dota_item_execute 4"
bind "n" "dota_item_execute 5"
bind "." "dota_purchase_stickybuy"
bind "/" "stash_grab_all"
bind "," "dota_purchase_quickbuy"
bind "f" "dota_stop"
bind "k" "mc_attack"
bind "i" "mc_move"
bind "8" "+dota_camera_follow;+dota_camera_follow"//
bind "7" "dota_select_all"//selecting all your units
bind "6" "dota_select_all_others"//selecting all but hero
bind "5" "dota_courier_deliver"
bind "a" "+smartshop"
bind "4" "+voicerecord"//
bind "0" "dota_glyph"//
bind "SPACE" "dota_cycle_selected"
bind "MOUSE4" "dota_ability_autocast 0"//
bind "t" "+topruneview"
bind "y" "+botruneview"
bind "e" "+chatwheel; chat0"
bind "3" "+chatwheel; chat1"
bind "2" "+chatwheel; chat2"
bind "w" "+chatwheel; chat3"

//HH03.cfg
bind "f6" "exec HH04.cfg"
dota_player_units_auto_attack 0
dota_player_units_auto_attack_after_spell 1
dota_player_teleport_requires_halt 1
dota_player_add_summoned_to_selection 0
bind "u" "dota_ability_execute 0"
bind "h" "dota_ability_execute 1"
bind "m" "dota_ability_execute 2"
bind "r" "dota_ability_execute 5"
bind "MOUSE5" "+heroabilitylearn"
bind "d" "dota_item_execute 0"
bind "g" "dota_item_execute 1"
bind "j" "dota_item_execute 2"
bind "x" "dota_item_execute 3"
bind "v" "dota_item_execute 4"
bind "n" "dota_item_execute 5"
bind "." "dota_purchase_stickybuy"
bind "/" "stash_grab_all"
bind "," "dota_purchase_quickbuy"
bind "f" "dota_stop"
bind "k" "mc_attack"
bind "i" "mc_move"
bind "8" "+dota_camera_follow;+dota_camera_follow"//
bind "7" "dota_select_all"//selecting all your units
bind "6" "dota_select_all_others"//selecting all but hero
bind "5" "dota_courier_deliver"
bind "a" "+smartshop"
bind "4" "+voicerecord"//
bind "0" "dota_glyph"//
bind "SPACE" "dota_cycle_selected"
bind "MOUSE4" "dota_ability_autocast 1"//
bind "t" "+topruneview"
bind "y" "+botruneview"
bind "e" "+chatwheel; chat0"
bind "3" "+chatwheel; chat1"
bind "2" "+chatwheel; chat2"
bind "w" "+chatwheel; chat3"

//HH04.cfg
bind "f6" "exec HH02.cfg"
dota_player_units_auto_attack 0
dota_player_units_auto_attack_after_spell 1
dota_player_teleport_requires_halt 1
dota_player_add_summoned_to_selection 0
bind "u" "dota_ability_execute 0"
bind "h" "dota_ability_execute 1"
bind "m" "dota_ability_execute 2"
bind "r" "dota_ability_execute 5"
bind "MOUSE5" "+heroabilitylearn"
bind "d" "dota_item_execute 0"
bind "g" "dota_item_execute 1"
bind "j" "dota_item_execute 2"
bind "x" "dota_item_execute 3"
bind "v" "dota_item_execute 4"
bind "n" "dota_item_execute 5"
bind "." "dota_purchase_stickybuy"
bind "/" "stash_grab_all"
bind "," "dota_purchase_quickbuy"
bind "f" "dota_stop"
bind "k" "mc_attack"
bind "i" "mc_move"
bind "8" "+dota_camera_follow;+dota_camera_follow"//
bind "7" "dota_select_all"//selecting all your units
bind "6" "dota_select_all_others"//selecting all but hero
bind "5" "dota_courier_deliver"
bind "a" "+smartshop"
bind "4" "+voicerecord"//
bind "0" "dota_glyph"//
bind "SPACE" "dota_cycle_selected"
bind "MOUSE4" "dota_ability_autocast 5"//
bind "t" "+topruneview"
bind "y" "+botruneview"
bind "e" "+chatwheel; chat0"
bind "3" "+chatwheel; chat1"
bind "2" "+chatwheel; chat2"
bind "w" "+chatwheel; chat3"